Resolutions vs Intentions

As with each and every new year, people are all a buzz about resolutions for the coming new year. I've been no different and each year I've resolved to do.... something. Quit smoking, lose weight, keep up with the laundry and on and on and on yet, I always fall short. Truth is that even as I make the resolution, a little voice inside me says "no you won't." Is that the voice of ego trying to keep me down, keep me at status quo? Or is it the voice of experience saying "Yeah, right. Been there, tried that." Doesn't matter what voice it is, it's there and it's loud.

Just the word Resolution puts this pressure on me that I just am not comfortable with! I don't like people telling me what to do, not even myself!! ;) So, this year I changed words. I used the word Intentions. I like it better. It's a softer more gentler word and it really says "Hey, if ya wanna, you could do _____. But, only if ya wanna and if you don't that's okay too." Phew! Pressure off.

Okay, now on to what my Intention was. I only made one. I have to test out this whole resolution vs intention before I put a whole serving on my plate! My intention is to put more action behind my words. I know that I am divinly inspired and intutively know about things that I give answers to or advice on. I feel it in my core as I give others guidance - especially in regards to evolving spiritually or reaching a new place with their abilities or, or, or... However, I don't always do what I say. My issue is that I live inside my head so much that it is difficult for me to take the time for myself that I give others. Not good.

Is it working? Yes. I've started on something small and easy to do. I was given this greek coin that dates back to the year 325 BC!! approximately. I feel a strong connection to this coin but I have kept it for over a year in a small leather pouch, just put away. I'd bring it out occasionally but not often. I have felt the desire to establish a closer relationship with it. For what? I'm not sure but the desire has been there. So, for the last week and a half, I've kept it under my pillow and as I lay down I slide my hand under the pillow and I hold the coin. I even started placing it on my 3rd eye. What seems to be happening as a result of doing this is the coin is feeling like an extension of myself. When I reach for it, I almost feel it reaching back. I've also started to remember more of my dreams which is something I've struggled with. But what I'm enjoying the most is something I didn't expect or see at all. I have this little bit of joy within me because I am doing something for myself. Im treating myself well. I am proud of myself.

I have other things I want (intend) to do and I will but for right now, for someone who isn't quite used to doing for herself, it's baby steps.

Michelle